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Name: Brett
Interests: i like to play the guitar, and i like to eat PB&J.. haha. and Opra, Dr. Phill.. black people . and stuff.
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3/13/2005
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| I AM growing more and more impatient every day. it seems like everytime i come close to doing something rite for me i get further and further away from being happy. ive been living each day for very short term goals i dont really think ive been worrying about the long run i need to start looking further ahead maybe if i wanna stop the hurt inside! ive been trying; im not working to my potential but its so hard for me! you dont understand that this life seems like its rejected me in all of the things that i care about, i just keep thinking that maybe everything isnt so bad maybe its just a dream and maybe ill wake up later and it will all be ok but every time i wake up from a dream i basically fall asleep into one big fucking nightmare i wish i could sleep every minute of every day since that seems to be the only way that i can actually be with her: and the only way that i can actually be elligable for sports which is tied for my first love along with the guitar which my mom thinks is throwing my life away, i think that its the only way to make my life seem real! when i oick up the guitar and start playing my life all of a sudden becomes worthwhile until i have to put it down and go back out to the jungle of hate at school. I WANT OUT OF THIS FUCKING LIFE SO BAD THAT ITS MAKING ME SICK....... anyways i went to the middle school dance last night and got kicked out bcuz i was too old, which i think is bull shit bcuz dr. mccallister was there and hes like 190 years old im only 15! lol, yea but when i was there i saw my brother joey for the first time in a longass time it was great i love that kid so much!! thought long and hard last night lol "long and hard" haha but yea anyways i thought long and hard last night about the girls ive been with lately and i give up on women again but this time im serious no more broken hearts im becoming a fucking monk or sumthin, i also thought long and heart about my uncle benny last night and cried my fucking ass off! i miss him soo much and its eating away on my conciousness i cant take it. i wanna seem him again and theres only one way but i dont really think im up for it, r.i.p. ben! i fuckin luv you call my cell whenever guys 584-4654 or the house378-2197
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| yo, i had fucking diversity class today and i was sitting with Joe and the punk ass twins were there and running their mouths it was the funniest thing ever! they were talking about how they were tough and then how they call their homeboys if they have a problem, well erin broke up with me yea i definately had fun and i thought that it was a bad thing for joe to be expelled but honestly i dont think he really cares! tried to help him but o well maybe later! luv ya - all of my dedicated fans dont forget to post some comments/ aka spit some shit at a nigga!/ or holla atcha boiii! later bitches | | |
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